Anxiety girl!

I remember reading an e card on Pinterest a while ago about "Anxiety girl! Able to jump to the craziest conclusions in a single bound!" Yep, that's me. I'm so stressed out and feel like I'm going crazy right now. I found a scorpion in our home last night and before I smashed it to oblivion, it took my peace of mind with it. I wish I could know for sure if he was the only one but then if he wasn't, I don't want to know if there are others lurking in the shadows. My main question is why? Why do they exist? What is their point? To completely freak me out and cause me to have an anxiety attack? Because that has now happened. I looked up anxiety attacks on the internet and all of the symptoms were correct. I was fah-reek-ing out. I'm so scared for Troy. The tamest scorpion sting can cause all sorts of problems in babies including death. How am I supposed to deal with that? And how am I supposed to sleep knowing there are possibly scorpions crawling in my home? The thought makes me feel like another attack is coming. Needless to say I have taken a Xanax and intend to find refuge at my mothers home or my mother in laws home. Both places have yet to see their first scorpion. :/ why oh why can't this house stop breaking? I just feel sick inside. I was so happy two days ago and loving my home and now I don't even want to be here. 😩 sorry for the downer post. I'm not about to be a fake plastic woman who pretends to be perfect though. I have real life issues and I need real life support from my family and friends. I don't want to hear the horror stories I want to hear the uplifting ones where the human prevails, not the bug. Haha so I had an anxiety attack? I'm not broken, I'm normal. I'll learn from this and grow. And I won't feel bad for taking a pill to calm myself down because I'm pretty sure if I hadn't, I'd still be convulsing.

Um ya...it's been a little while. 😁

So my last post was in March. Oops. Time is flying by over here people. I can't even believe my baby turned one almost a month ago! Troy is growing and developing so quickly! Everyday he is a little bit different. He learns so quickly! He is still toothless and not crawling, determined to be a baby forever! Haha I'm pretty sure he is teething though. Lots of drool and crying. Poor guy. :/ so to catch up from the last post, he did end up weighing 14.5 lbs at his 6month check up and I honestly skipped the 9 month check up. There weren't any shots at that check up and he wasn't sick so I just said "meh...he's fine!" Haha we still have to go in for his 12 month shots and check up. 😁 I need to get on that! Troy loves playing with other kids and loves doggies. He will let anyone hold him and loves to touch your face when you hold him. He does "snuggle mama" on command where he basically just puts his head down on my shoulder and snuggles me. And if I'm in his nursery, rocking him in the rocking chair and singing he will stay snuggled up on me forever until he falls asleep. 🙏 thank the heavens that my wiggly boy loves to cuddle his mama. He also knows how to say "baba" and I'm saying that's his first legitimate word! He loves to babble and crawls funny with one knee on the ground and one foot on the ground. It's a little skiwompus but so cute! He is wiggly and does not like to sit still unless he is sleepy or very interested in something. He loves Mickey Mouse clubhouse and gets so giddy whenever I turn it on. At his first birthday he went to town on his birthday cake and he loved all his new presents. But he especially liked the other babies who came and the balloons.  We went to Disneyland last weekend and he had a blast!! He loved every ride and was so interested in everything! We rode Ariel's underwater adventure first. We also took him to the Mickey Mouse clubhouse show which he LOVED. And we took him to see Mickey Mouse in his home in toon town. Mickey was so cute with Troy. He made cute sounds that make Troy smile really big and Troy loved Mickeys big face and nose. 😆 Troy loves his cousins and auntie Christy. He loves his twin cousin, Jane...a little too much. Haha he likes to grab onto her and her bows and Jane doesn't really love it. 😁 she tolerates him. Haha Jane and Troy had the same due date. (I have no idea how Christy and I managed that one!) haha I hope we can do it again someday! Oh man! There is so much to say! Troy loves his Dada and loves when daddy comes home from work. Todd loves Troy and is such a FANTASTIC daddy! And husband. He is such a hard worker! Speaking of hard work, we closed the deal on our house on August 9th and just moved in about three weeks ago? It was a nightmare. Water damage and we had to file a claim with USAA. It took so long to fix the house up to where we could live in it but now it's so gorgeous and we're so happy to have a home in the best area! I love being so close to everything! We love our new ward and we actually speak in church next Sunday. 😁 oh how I hate the stress of preparing to speak in public...but somehow once I'm up there I'm fine. It's weird. Well that's all for now. I will be better about posting. I also want to start posting about my interests. You know, fashion, hair, make up. Because the world needs another blog like that, right?! Haha