Today in sunday school I had a really powerful spiritual experience. I was barely able to keep my emotions in. We were talking about the creation and how you can read and learn about the creation in four different places. Three are scriptural references found in Abraham, Moses and Genesis. The last is what we learn when we go to the temple. When we were talking about the creation, we were reading in Moses 1: 30&31. Moses asks the Lord why these things are so and what made them. And The Lord said to Moses, face to face, "For mine own purpose have I made these things. Here is wisdom and it remaineth in me." Which made me think of a Mother or Father telling their child that it is so because they say it is so. Which makes Heavenly Father even more relatable to us. But this is where the Lord teaches us that we need to have faith and trust in him. He gives Moses more knowledge of the heavens and earth, who created it, who the first man was, etc. He does this for Moses so that he will have comfort and trust in the Lord.
As I was hearing all of this during sunday school, I was overwhelmed with the spirit. My testimony that my Savior and my Heavenly Father love me was increased immensely. Whenever I have struggled in these past couple of months since my niece passed, I have turned to the scriptures, to prayer or just pleaded with God to help me feel better, to help me know that Jane is okay and that I will see her again. That we will all see her again. Every single time I have asked, I have gotten an answer... EVERY SINGLE TIME. There has not been one time that I haven't been comforted by the Holy Spirit. All I had to do was ask for that comfort, that knowledge that Jane is okay and it was given to me.
There is no doubt in my mind that God lives and that he LOVES US. He really loves us, so much so that he personally sends the spirit to us when we are aching and hurting and need his love with us. I remember my mom telling me when she went through a very hard time of her life that she was so close to the spirit that she felt like God was holding her hand every day and helping her through each and every step she had to take. The Savior made it possible for me to enjoy life on this earth, He suffered and died so that I can rest easy and know I will be able to be with my loved ones for eternity.
I'm so thankful for the amazing people in the Church who prepare these lessons that have such an amazing affect on my soul. I'm thankful for Sundays, for the spiritual renewal, the physical rest, the family time and the chance to renew covenants I've made with my dear, sweet Lord. His love is apparent in my life now more than ever and I'm so thankful he has patiently waited for me to wake up and realize that I need him in my life daily, even hourly.
